It's been a little over a week since finishing Whole 30, but I needed to take some time to reflect and get in a better headspace about finishing. I woke that last morning feeling absolutely great UNTIL I stepped on the scale. I lost less than I thought I would and spent the rest of the day in a puddle of emotions. I was mad and disappointed in myself for not hitting the "target" I had set for myself. I cried way more than I should have. All of my feelings were pretty irrational and my reaction told me that I wasn't done yet with my journey and still had a lot to learn. I was blind-sided by how easy it was for me to discount all the wonderful things that I experienced just because the number wasn't what I wanted it to be. That wasn't my best day for sure.
There were so many wonderful things about the challenge. I tried new recipes and spent the month reacquainting myself with a myriad of veggies. I especially loved mashed cauliflower, sweet potatoes and roasted beets. I said no to a lot of food and temptations and that felt really good.
I didn't cheat AT ALL. Even though there were chances all the time.
I didn't have one single chai latte.
That alone should earn me a medal for sure.
I also didn't weigh myself once the whole month. I felt clothes get looser and felt myself not feeling defeated by a number on a scale. My mood wasn't determined by a number on a scale.
I connected with other people that were doing the challenge too. They held me accountable. It's a lot easier to stick to it if you have friends to help through the tough parts.
I got texts from dear friends that encouraged me and helped me too.
There were more good parts than that one moment and with some time, I realize that the weight I lost was just the baby steps. The beginning.
I've decided to keep going forward and make this a Whole 60. Right now, I feel better than I have in a long time and eating this way makes more sense to me than anything else. I'm still not sure where this will lead to and that's okay. I'm trying to prove to myself that I can do this.
I know I can.
So, I'm going forward. I've been trying to add in more exercise and have added a few new Paleo cookbooks to the stash. My new end date is March 9th and I'll report back how it's going then.