There are times when I am so full of self doubt about my parenting skills. Parenting two (three, if you add in Mia) wholly different souls is one of the most challenging things I've ever done. Everyday I'm learning new things. Everyday I feel like I missed something. The truth is, at the end of the day, being your mother makes me prouder than anything else I've accomplished. You make me want to achieve greater things. You make me work hard. You make me love like I've never loved before.
My sweet girl. You remain the quietest kid in the bunch. You are a watcher and imaginative and will often go off to play on your own, especially when games with your brother and sister get loud and complicated. You like to cuddle and have fallen in love with stuffed animals. You love taking baths and dancing. You are guarded, but not afraid to tell people close to you that you love them. Your eyes still sparkle the brightest when you are truly happy.
There have been bumps in the road with you this year, but they remind us that you are independent, strong, determined. These are great qualities to have and I hope that you always have them in you. I am so proud of you and worry that you get lost in the loud shadows of your brother and sister. Know that I love you, always.
You are so much like your big sister. You are out-going, social, and always wanting to play. You wear your heart on your sleeve and can get your feelings hurt so easily. It's extremely hard being the only little boy in the house. Sometimes you want to play rougher than your sisters (and mom) will allow. You love having special time with your Daddy---especially if it's at Target. Your favorite thing to do is wander up and down the aisles looking at all the toys. You rarely ask to bring anything home and are just content to be there. You love Spider-man and Transformers and most other superheroes too. You are starting to write letters and can usually identify most letters or numbers you see.
My sweet boy, you have the best laugh in the world and I love to see you happy. Everyday, I'm thankful that I am a mother to a son. You have so much to teach me about the world of boys and I am so grateful.
There have been a lot of changes for both of you this year. I went back to work and you are in school more. We switched schools and immediately saw you guys flourish. But, you have less time with me and at home and there are a multitude of downsides to that too. I hope someday you'll understand how every decision we make as parents goes through a filter of what's best for you. Some of the decisions we have to make hurt more than others. Some lead to exciting opportunities that make us feel like champions. No matter what, we love you and do nearly everything for you and for the good of our family. There are so many exciting things ahead for us. Just around the corner we'll have pre-K and finally be old enough to start some extra-curricular activities. We're hoping to take a dream family vacation and spend more time exploring our beautiful state. This year will be a great year----I can feel it.
Even if we go nowhere---do nothing----it will be great, because we have each other.