|Right before a major showdown.|
I think about the amount of time that spans two years and I am blown away at how fast it's gone. I hardly remember what the days looked like before you came. All I know is that I am so glad you did. It's not been a cake walk, but it's been an adventure that I am so glad to call my own. You both have taught me so much about being a mom and even more so about what a family feels like. You fill our home with laughter, joy, heartache, and wonder. Just the other night Mia said that she was so lonely before you were born. I know what she means. You both have filled my heart with so much love and happiness. There were spaces for you in our world that we had no clue needed filled until you came.
You are my little explorer, my troublemaker, my tenderhearted and loving boy. You are so busy all the time with little projects. You are quick to get frustrated, though, if things aren't going your way or your sister starts to mess with whatever you are working on. It's usually then that you'll come running to me for consolation and a quick snuggle. I love those moments with you. You are hungry all the time and love to eat fruit snacks and cereal bars. I've also started a horrible habit of giving you a little whip cream with your morning waffles and you love that too. You are a big fan of anything you can do on your own. I can tell that being the only small boy is trying sometimes, though. Lately you've taken to hiding in your closet. Sometimes you'll take a book or toy in there. Other times you'll rip apart the clothes bins and empty the whole box of diapers. I like to think that it's your little hiding spot. The one place you can get away---even if it's just until I come and find you.
Lately you have become Mia's shadow. She takes you with her in the mornings to get ready. She'll help you brush teeth and hair and she wants so badly to teach you to use the potty. So far you are terrified of sitting on it, though. If anyone can talk you into it, it would be your big sister. You adore her. I love to see how much she wants to play with you and I think the next year will be wonderful for solidifying your relationship as sisters. My hope is that you'll grow up not only loving each other, but wanting to be friends. There is nothing more special than the love between siblings.
I am happy to report that you both have had haircuts and Hollis's curls survived and look adorable. You both sat so still in the chair and I promise to not be so neglectful about your hair from here on out. Naps have been the one area where we are struggling. Last year at this time I was still getting two small naps a day. Now, I'm lucky if I get one nap. Instead, you've been busy having crib jumping contests, ripping sheets of the mattresses, and chewing books to pieces. It's hard for me to fully relax unless you are asleep, so I've been one exhausted Momma by day's end. I know this shift in napping is normal, but I'm not ready to give it up. I know that this year will be huge as far as changes go. By this time next year, you will be nearly preschoolers, talking clearly and will look even more like little people. Our routines and days will look so different. I'll have learned a whole new way to be your Momma. I embrace the changes (yes, even the difficult ones) because they mean that I'll have had a whole other year to be with you. I am so grateful for that. I am so grateful for each day that I have you both.